life is like a box of chocolates...

Pretty much 8 more days 'til I fly out.

I'm getting more and more apprehensive.

I'm sad to leave yet excited and then scared again.

I'm sad to leave this place because I've adjusted here and I like it.  I have so much family here.  It's great having my mama around again.

Excited though to go home.  Be surrounded by familiar things, places, people, foods, etc.  I can't wait to see my dad and the lil bro.  Can't wait to watch some real football.  Wake up and know AlberTaco's or In 'n Out is only 10-15 minutes away.  I even miss driving- being able to just go somewhere and be alone- there's just too many people in this city.

Scared because I don't know how I'm going to pick up my life in the states.  Apprehensive about being able to re-adjust.  I feel like those weeks between my brother leaving and me going back to DC- I'm just going to be alone with no one to hang out with, slipping in some awkward state of isolation and non-social interaction.

I think I find all of this awkward.  Actually, I think I find my entire life to be awkward.  Things just happen in my life.  I wish I had more control of it, but at the same time- things aren't that horrible- I mean I've ended up this far.

I really can't believe I have just about a week and a few more days here.  Three months have gone by so quickly.

I'm really excited for my last village trip though.  To taste that sweet milk tea, that fresh air and just be surrounded by the open country side one more time- I think it's nearly the perfect way to end this trip.  I'm sure I'll post a few more times after this, but just wanted to say thank you to those who have followed and checked up on me; the thoughts and comments were tremendous on keeping up my morals through the latest period that is my life.

In the end that's what it is about right? LIFE.  We only have this one short period in existence to do what we want to do.  I'm as guilty as the next person in taking it all for granted and going through the motions just to get by.  But, once you break from it, look at things in another perspective- I personally have begun to slowly and little by little have begun to appreciate it all.  I guess it's then appropriate that around thanksgiving- I am once again thankful for the life I have, my family, my friends and just about everything.

ps. I'm still unmarried and will be so when I get back..so HA!

Love,

Mahbub "unmarried" Sarwar