Pretty much 8 more days 'til I fly out.
I'm getting more and more apprehensive.
I'm sad to leave yet excited and then scared again.
I'm sad to leave this place because I've adjusted here and I like it. I have so much family here. It's great having my mama around again.
Excited though to go home. Be surrounded by familiar things, places, people, foods, etc. I can't wait to see my dad and the lil bro. Can't wait to watch some real football. Wake up and know AlberTaco's or In 'n Out is only 10-15 minutes away. I even miss driving- being able to just go somewhere and be alone- there's just too many people in this city.
Scared because I don't know how I'm going to pick up my life in the states. Apprehensive about being able to re-adjust. I feel like those weeks between my brother leaving and me going back to DC- I'm just going to be alone with no one to hang out with, slipping in some awkward state of isolation and non-social interaction.
I think I find all of this awkward. Actually, I think I find my entire life to be awkward. Things just happen in my life. I wish I had more control of it, but at the same time- things aren't that horrible- I mean I've ended up this far.
I really can't believe I have just about a week and a few more days here. Three months have gone by so quickly.
I'm really excited for my last village trip though. To taste that sweet milk tea, that fresh air and just be surrounded by the open country side one more time- I think it's nearly the perfect way to end this trip. I'm sure I'll post a few more times after this, but just wanted to say thank you to those who have followed and checked up on me; the thoughts and comments were tremendous on keeping up my morals through the latest period that is my life.
In the end that's what it is about right? LIFE. We only have this one short period in existence to do what we want to do. I'm as guilty as the next person in taking it all for granted and going through the motions just to get by. But, once you break from it, look at things in another perspective- I personally have begun to slowly and little by little have begun to appreciate it all. I guess it's then appropriate that around thanksgiving- I am once again thankful for the life I have, my family, my friends and just about everything.
ps. I'm still unmarried and will be so when I get back..so HA!
Love,
Mahbub "unmarried" Sarwar
Friday, November 26, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I should update, but I won't
Quickie:
Things are going alright.
Mom comes to the motherland tomorrow at 8 in the morning.
Going to my last village trip this Sunday (decided that just now).
Still have a lot of shopping to do, if you want something let me know and I'll see if I can get it for you.
I'm going to miss so many people and so many of the things that have made this trip amazing and Bangladesh- well Bangladesh. I only hope the country improves in all facets so the people have a better life and are able to reach their full human potential regardless of class.
Did I mention my mom flies in tomorrow morning? I feel as if my single days are numbered...
-Mahbub
Things are going alright.
Mom comes to the motherland tomorrow at 8 in the morning.
Going to my last village trip this Sunday (decided that just now).
Still have a lot of shopping to do, if you want something let me know and I'll see if I can get it for you.
I'm going to miss so many people and so many of the things that have made this trip amazing and Bangladesh- well Bangladesh. I only hope the country improves in all facets so the people have a better life and are able to reach their full human potential regardless of class.
Did I mention my mom flies in tomorrow morning? I feel as if my single days are numbered...
-Mahbub
Monday, November 15, 2010
insert witty title
Hello again!
So let's see.. some things have changed since the last time I updated while others have not. I think by coming here and doing this internship I hoped I'd grow as a person and mature, but I don't know if I've grown or matured much in these last few months. I won't lie, but I feel like a kid compared to some of you reading this. Some of you just seem so much more in control and focused in your lives where I'm still laughing at that's what she said jokes. That might be a weak example, because let's face it- we all laugh at that's what she said jokes, but seriously- sometimes I just wish I could be 100% serious and focused.
Onto other things tho- so a crazy story. Couple of weeks ago a few friends and I go out to dinner. Dinner was good- conversation was great and around 11 30 we end up finishing dinner and just loitering outside the restaurant trying to figure out what we wanted to do next. We see a burned up car- take some pictures of that, some people have a quick smoke, overall we're just chilling. We finally decide on a place and between 8 of us take 3 rickshaws. I'm in the middle rickshaw which has three of us and the other two rickshaws have two people each. Then not even two minutes in- I see a car speed up and suddenly brake in front of the first rickshaw where a guy climbs out of the passenger side and pulls on the camera bag of my friend; he pulls so hard that she falls of the rickshaw, hits her head on the road- rolls and lies there motionless. Car speeds away- we all get out and run to her where we see her slowly rolling in pain, blood everywhere, crying. I have to say I was shocked, surprised, scared, I mean you name it- I prolly felt it. But, yea luckily for us the hospital was 2 minutes away (it was opposite of the place where we had dinner) and we got her in the ER really quickly where it turned out no bones were broken and she just needed three stitches under her chin. But, that incident has woken all of us up and reminded us how this country isn't exactly the safest and we need to be aware of our surroundings at all times.
Also, as some of you know-I've been sick for the past week. I think it's a culmination of all the polluted air I've breathed in for the last two months and it's finally affected my lungs to the point where I feel as if my asthma has come back. I've been feeling better lately now that I've taken some antibiotics and medicine specially for asthma patients. I think I'll fully recover once I get back home and take in that fresh southern-californian air. God, sometimes I obsess about going home. I mean I am enjoying my time, but those times when I can't get a coffee, a good burger, a place to walk on the sidewalks, I just imagine how amazing it'll be when I'm home.
I come home on December 6, 2010 btw..leaving here on the 5th and landing at 8 in the morning the next day in LAX. I feel so conflicted about it all. I know I can't stay here forever, but I wish I could. But, of course at the same time- DC is my home now and I can't wait to be back in 434 Buchanan St.
For some of you- you'll realize what a significant sentence that last one was for me. Oh, I've also been kicked out of school! Details on that some other time. Hope everyone is doing well and I'll see some of you in less than 30 days!
-Mahbub
So let's see.. some things have changed since the last time I updated while others have not. I think by coming here and doing this internship I hoped I'd grow as a person and mature, but I don't know if I've grown or matured much in these last few months. I won't lie, but I feel like a kid compared to some of you reading this. Some of you just seem so much more in control and focused in your lives where I'm still laughing at that's what she said jokes. That might be a weak example, because let's face it- we all laugh at that's what she said jokes, but seriously- sometimes I just wish I could be 100% serious and focused.
Onto other things tho- so a crazy story. Couple of weeks ago a few friends and I go out to dinner. Dinner was good- conversation was great and around 11 30 we end up finishing dinner and just loitering outside the restaurant trying to figure out what we wanted to do next. We see a burned up car- take some pictures of that, some people have a quick smoke, overall we're just chilling. We finally decide on a place and between 8 of us take 3 rickshaws. I'm in the middle rickshaw which has three of us and the other two rickshaws have two people each. Then not even two minutes in- I see a car speed up and suddenly brake in front of the first rickshaw where a guy climbs out of the passenger side and pulls on the camera bag of my friend; he pulls so hard that she falls of the rickshaw, hits her head on the road- rolls and lies there motionless. Car speeds away- we all get out and run to her where we see her slowly rolling in pain, blood everywhere, crying. I have to say I was shocked, surprised, scared, I mean you name it- I prolly felt it. But, yea luckily for us the hospital was 2 minutes away (it was opposite of the place where we had dinner) and we got her in the ER really quickly where it turned out no bones were broken and she just needed three stitches under her chin. But, that incident has woken all of us up and reminded us how this country isn't exactly the safest and we need to be aware of our surroundings at all times.
Also, as some of you know-I've been sick for the past week. I think it's a culmination of all the polluted air I've breathed in for the last two months and it's finally affected my lungs to the point where I feel as if my asthma has come back. I've been feeling better lately now that I've taken some antibiotics and medicine specially for asthma patients. I think I'll fully recover once I get back home and take in that fresh southern-californian air. God, sometimes I obsess about going home. I mean I am enjoying my time, but those times when I can't get a coffee, a good burger, a place to walk on the sidewalks, I just imagine how amazing it'll be when I'm home.
I come home on December 6, 2010 btw..leaving here on the 5th and landing at 8 in the morning the next day in LAX. I feel so conflicted about it all. I know I can't stay here forever, but I wish I could. But, of course at the same time- DC is my home now and I can't wait to be back in 434 Buchanan St.
For some of you- you'll realize what a significant sentence that last one was for me. Oh, I've also been kicked out of school! Details on that some other time. Hope everyone is doing well and I'll see some of you in less than 30 days!
-Mahbub
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