slowly losing track of the days

So I'm not exactly sure how long I've been here now, but I am starting to get into a groove and adjusting.  Not fully of course.  I don't think I'll ever fully be able to adjust.  There are some parts I don't think I should get used to, but that part comes later.  Eid went fairly well (made about $40) so I've a little more wiggle room with my expenses now that I'm broke; broke I tell you.  While it was great to visit family, feast like a king, and just plain celebrate the day I just couldn't get over what I saw in the morning after prayers.  I'm not a real religious person although I would like to believe I am a spiritual person, I've just never been a devout follower.  I chose to go to prayers because it was just the thing to do and while it wasn't anything amazing, it was just awkward to come to terms with what I saw after.  There were lines and lines of women, children and the elderly begging for money.  They were malnourished, hardly dressed and emotionally beaten.  I think we all know about poverty and agree it's a bad thing, but to see the level of poverty in the morning was eye opening.  I struggled with what word best described how I felt and eye opening seems right, but not the perfect choice.  I'm not sure what word I really mean because the level of poverty is nothing new, I've seen it before, but I had managed to forget it.  My mind amazes me at times at what it chooses to remember and what it hides away.  I've chosen to mostly remember the good things and forget about the faults and despair that is present in Bangladesh.  Today I went to the village where my mom grew up and on the ride there I saw a dog limping across the road.  Most of you know I'm a dog person and I wanted to do something, but then realized if people are half clothed and starving then what chance does a stray mut have?  I don't know how I'm going to reconcile or even react to these continuing situations I know I will face, but I'm glad I've become more aware of them.  I came here to hopefully do some good and that is what I hopefully will do.  In the mean time I hope you all are o.k. and doing well.  I'm a little hurt by the Raiders losing, but let's face it, it's the Raiders; losing is what we do best.

Last note: I've decided to post up songs once in a while since I'm getting plenty of alone time with my ipod.

Song: Stars
Artist: XX

"Stars"